No, no, no...this isn't a pity post. I pinkie swear!
There is a point.
When I embarked on my blogging journey (in 2006!! Really? That long ago??) I didn't expect to gain followers or develop virtual friendships with other bloggers. I really expected to be hanging out, alone, in my corner of the Internet. In 2008 I joined BlogHer, posted a few times and then stopped, until last year.
Well, surprise...surprise...I wasn't alone and people liked me - they followed my posts often commenting nice things! It still really blows my mind when someone tells me how much they like my writing or that I've given voice to what was in their own heads.I made connections and found friends...go figure!
Sometimes, on rare occasions, these comments come from people I knew, but who I thought paid little attention to my writing. That is true treasure, my friends. It makes me wonder how many other people are reading my blog, because 'follower' stats are notorious for fibbing so I have no idea how far (or not) my voice travels.
So, what's my point?
BlogHer 2012 is coming up next week. Several women I know via BlogHer will be going, plus oodles of other women and men with both big and small blogs. They'll be going to learn stuff, meet their blogging idols or a celebrity, learn something new, make connections, etc. etc. etc.
As a person who blogs about whatever tap dances across my brain, I've never put much thought into participating in something so grand. I mean, this is an event for people who are serious about making a name for themselves or becoming a Big Cheese in the blogosphere. Right? People who are directionless and just dabblers are not the target audience for these types of conferences. Right?
As the excitement over BlogHer 2012 grows and Chatter practically vibrates with anticipation, I've started to wonder if someone like me could hobnob with real writers (something I've seen other bloggers ponder - we, many of us, still don't consider ourselves writers - we should stop doing that). I started to think that maybe, just maybe, immersing myself in a room full of smartness would rub off and I'd start seeing my own path illuminate. And, at its worst, I'll be able to meet FACE TO FACE the amazing people I interact with regularly in BlogHer Chatter.
I'm fairly certain that there needs to be some sort of investment from me to figure out whether my path will be through a keyboard or some other avenue. I'm also pretty confident that NOT doing anything and just continuing to rehash the same topics, using different words, isn't going to lead anywhere.
Is a BlogHer conference the educational boost I need? Or, would it just be an expensive indulgence and a chance to hang out with virtual friends - shedding my loner skin once and for all and become a joiner (that's really a silly statement, I know full well it would be a fabulous eye opener - educationally, of course)?
So, I don't know if BlogHer 2013 is in my future (that will need to be a future far more financially fruitful than this current one), but I DO know that I'm thinking about it. I've been forcing myself to write more, even if it is drivel and a regurgitation of past posts - because NOT writing isn't getting me anywhere either. For now I'll be waiting
So tell me....
Are you going to BlogHer 2012 and why?
Where do you want it to lead you?